Abah kau???!??

Sebenanrnya tajuk post hari nih, amin yang bagi idea. Saya tukang tulis je sambil dia cube multi tasking dengan main ps3 fifa 12 dan bagi idea apa nak tulis. "abang, apa maksud perkataan n?" "annoying!" Gile takde kaitan dengan perbincangan kitorang. Unless dia yang ingat aku annoying. Ewah -ewah.suke hati je. After 10 mins, he's still unable to provide more ideas to my rant today, other than blabbering on his players for unable to win any more game. Hehehe, tak reti main, salahkan player. Sian player tuh. Oklah, sakit perut. Makan banyak sangat. Sambung esoklah. Or, maybe next time.

Comot

The weekend was spent rummaging and re-arranging all the clothes in the wardrobe again, other that the usual moping-dust busting the whole house, washing clothes..

And, other than the moping-dusting part, the rest of my chores was accompanied by one really curious-amazed look, by Comot. She will always be there with me, no matter what. She always try to position herself near my feet whenever I'm in the kitchen. Looking at the fridge, the sink. 

Either I was washing my clothes, reading, typing on my laptop, you name it... she's always sit nearby. I kind of think of her my little guardian angel (who at this point needed me to be guarding her from jumping off the balcony). Even, when I was praying, she'll always try to sit on the prayer mat as well.

This one tiny feisty creature is adorable and always a dear to my husband. I once asked him "between all four, which one do you love most?" He didn't answer me, but I know that he always do the 'ga.. ga' with Comot all the time. He likes Comot because she's very 'manja' and reminded him of our late Simba. Whenever he opened up the front door, Comot would be running to him, just like Simba (Nope, that didn't happen to me though). 

Last week, we had to cut her nails because she's at that age where she just scratch anything, even our feet and hands. I googled up on the 'how-to' and we both grabbed her while trying to cut her nails. She was making her usual noise when things didn't go her way whenever any of the nail got cut but we didn't budge! :) "Sudah tau laa dia punyer teknik". :)

2011 - In Retrospect (Part 1)

Oklah, dah nak masuk 2012. Surely, mesti everybody akan comment dalam blog/fb masing2 tentang apa yang diorang sume dah capai this year. Have we achieved all of our resolutions (or any of them)?

I can vaguely remember how my 2011 start actually. Mainly because, I was having a diarrhea while everyone else was celebrating the new year with party or fireworks. Mr. Botak stopped by my place that night to bring me tapau dinner/lunch and some panadols to sooth my pain. He had his annual new year bbq at his friend's place and wasn't able to stay with me.

So, what else happen in 2011?
January
I was in South Africa the whole month of January, helping out a friend for a project assignment. I never dream of being there but it was an exciting experience! :)

March
Oh yeah, I definitely have to remember that I did tie the knot to Mr. Botak on 13/3/2011. Alhamdulillah... My late mother was really fond of him and somehow, that feeling was passed on me to a year back when I realized that he is the 'ONE' for me. I know this entry macam very tacky... but, he was the kind of person i visualized to be there for me when I'm 30 (next year), 40, 50, 60 ...even 80. Ameen!

Not having my mom did make me helpless when it comes to wedding preparation. Alhamdulillah, a lot of people have actually help this damsel-in-distress in making this wedding a success. My family esp abah, my siblings, my aunties, uncles, cousins and their children!  They were with me all the way till the reception in Bangi at Mr. Botak's place. Only Allah can repay all their kindness that they had showed me.

May - June
A few days before Labor Day, I found out that I was pregnant. It was an exciting moment for both of us. Unfortunately, a few weeks later, I was miscarried after a few weeks of spotting and bleeding. I had the berpantang period at my mother-in-law's place since I myself have no idea on how exactly I should handle this. Both of us think that, we should always try again and this is just Allah showing that He has other plans for us.

July
Following my miscarriage incident, I decided that I need to focus on something else. While browsing through the internet, I found a house which my dad likes so much (Mesti pelik, is this my house or my dad's?)
Well, my dad was extremely fond with the idea of me buying a house at that time. So, both of us went to property exhibitions and also checking sub sale houses in Bangi/ Bukit Mahkota/ Bandar Seri Putra area. He was a "broker tanah"; hence, he usually look at the size of the land, rather the building itself.
So, we found this house in Bukit Mahkota and he fall in love with it instantly, which took me at least 15 minutes longer. Mr. Botak, of course took a back seat in this case but he didn't mind it at all. For him, as long as we're living somewhere near Bangi is good enough. I searched for lawyer online and decided to go through with her. And a few weeks later, we signed the S&P to become the owner of the sub-sale.

Note:
Of course, every now and then, I would pester Mr. Botak to drive around my soon-to-be house just to catch a glimpse of it. Not that, there was any changes made to to house. As a matter of fact, I always dream of what my bedroom, living room, kitchen, garden would be like and I just want to go there to see whether the size fits my imaginary dream garden or kitchen.

Sept - Nov
I was pregnant (and unfortunately miscarried again). I went back to Terengganu to stay with my dad during the pantang period. Mr. Botak allowed me to go home with my younger brother simply because he understood me. I just want to be alone, where I could find peace. And of course, there's no place like home. It makes me thinking more about my late mom. I even asked my dad how did my mom coped with pantang (not having anyone around.. parents or siblings). He said, she had Tok Minah (my mom's foster mother), who was also a bidan to help her with the pantang. We talked about our family when all my siblings were younger. My dad commented that none of us have any major disease or sickness. Most of the time, my dad didn't know what to do and my mom was the one who took care of us. :)

To be continued...

Miscarriage (chapter 3)

Hari ni (eh semalam, dah kul 3 pagi)

Yes, semalam, my husband whisper to me that he didn't mind doing all the chores; washing clothes, cooking, kemas rumah, because he knew all those hard work could never reach the level of pain that I was in. Yes, he hate seeing me in pain. The same way I can't bear looking at him when he's sick.

To my husband (yes, I know you're reading this)...

Thank you sayang

You won't see me do this in public (Facebook) simply because I condone any love-affection in public. Yes, ini pun public but only my hubby and my few close friends je yang baca. So, hopefully they don't mind :)

And to my close friends, thank you for all your wishes. :)



Miscarriage (chapter 2)

Hari tu saya cakap saya nak buat D&C last Monday. So ape ceritanya?

Monday morning:
We went to Hospital Serdang. Mula - mule pergi OB/GYN terus pastu the lady at receptionist cakap we need to go straight to emergency (sebab dah bleeding). Its not that far but considering I'm bleeding and my MILand FIL ada, kesian juga tengok both of them had to walk.Sampai sana, orang dekat registration tuh asked us to go back to OB/GYN. Tapi, my FIL & MIL cakap yang kitorang dah pergi sana tadi and was asked to go here. Nak tanak, they had to accept us. 10 minutes later, my husband and I was asked to go into the wad dekat belakang  and duduk atas katil. Lepas amek BP, Dr. Shila ni datang and attend saya. She did a scan and also check to see whether my pintu rahim dah buka ker belum. Dia cuba refer to OB/GYN balek tapi sangat - sangat lama nak dapatkan mereka. Lepas sejam setengah, Dr Shila ni came back and asked me whether I wanted to do the D&C atau passed the baby naturally. Either way, akan ambil masa 3 - 4 weeks kalau nak buat di Hospital Serdang ni. So, lepas tu, buat appointment untuk 2 minggu lagi, and balek.

Monday Afternoon.
Lepas balek hospital, FIL saya belanja makan kat kedai mamak yang sedap.Later on, after sending our parents, my husband and I decided to go back home and rest. Sampai je, terus call Az-zahrah untuk schedule D&C next morning. Alhamdulillah, dapat.
Lepas tu masa tengah tidur, rasa macam cramp yang sangat teruk, lagi teruk dari period paid. Encik Botak kasi panadol activefast sebab dia kesian tengok saya sakit sangat. Lepas tu, mula - mula batuk a few times. Setiap kali batuk, rasa macam ade something keluar kat bawah. Cepat - cepat bangun, tengok macam ade blod clot/flesh. Terus panggil my husband. We put it dalam bekas, in case doktor nak tengok. Then, lepas tu baring balek sebab sakit sangat. And then, the same pain occured and I felt like something tarik kat dalam. Sakit sangat - sangat. Everytime pergi toilet, nampak macam flesh keluar. After the forth time, baru laa keluar banyak. And this time, my husband cakap, itu uri baby. Rasa sedih sangat masa tuh :(. Around 5 pm, I felt so much better compared to before. Rasa macam tak sakit dah. Kaki dan tangah pun dah tak bisa- bisa macam the day before. Probably sebab semua dah turun.

Monday Night
We went to Azzahrah and Dr. Suriyanti (cantik tau doctor ni, my husband cakap) scan and tgk kat dalam my rahim to check whether I've passed everything. When she said, its a complete miscarriage, I felt so relieved. I don't want to do the D&C. :( I'm scared actually after listening to what Dr Shila said earlier. But, we still need to see our gynae next morning to double confirm that we're done with this miscarriage processs. I just want it to be done with.

Tuesday Morning.
We returned to Azzahrah and went straight to see our Gynae. Another round of intraveaginal scan was done on me. Semalam, Dr. Suriyanti tuh guna torch light kot nak tengok whether everything is clean. This time, my gynae, Dr. Fazlina guna satu alat yang agak menyakitkan tapi mungkin lebih detailed sebab boleh nampak clearly my rahim. Rupa - rupanya, ade tissue yang tinggal around 12 mm. Dia cakap ini tengah - tengah, tak banyak, tak sikit. Kalau dalam 8 mm, no need for D&C. Kalau 16 mm, dia insist untuk cuci juga. I decided that I want to wait up for another week. Kalau ade lagi next week, then we do the D& C. My husband said this is my choice. Its my body. Dr. Fazlina prescribed me with an antibiotic, takut ade infection.

So now, I'm resting at my in-laws. The last few days, mesti akan sakit, cramp macam period pain. Rasanya lagi sakit dari period pain. Ramai yang cakap, cuci je rahim tuh. The truth is, not only I'm scared of the pain but also the risk of doing it. Scarring especially because its a procedure where the doc/gynae blindly remove that one layer in your uterus. Rasa macam sedih sangat because I don't have my mom with me right now. My mom would have know what to do. I would have follow her advice all along because I trust her. She's my mom and she was a nurse for her whole life. But maybe, she wasn't here right now because if she's here, she might be extremely susah hati dan sedih because of this. Maybe that's why.

Ya Allah, tempatkanlah ibu ku dalam golongan yang diberkati dan dicucuri rahmat-Mu. Ameen.

Visit to hospital

Esok, pagi - pagi saya akan pergi ker Hospital Serdang. Kalau siapa yang baca post saya di sini pasti akan tahu yang saya sebenarnya miscarriage. Selepas beberapa minggu saya dan encik botak ke hulu ke hilir dalam area Bangi ni, buat scan situ sini, akhirnya kami redha dengan ketentuan - Nya. Berat juga rasa di hati bila memikirkan tentang baby yang kami tunggu - tunggu tapi setiap kejadian ini, ada hikmahnya. Hanya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Maha Mengetahui.

Dalam dua, tiga hari ni,saya dah start google apa pantang- pantang yang perlu saya buat untuk pastikan yang segala - galanya akan pulih sebetulnya. Takut jugak bila ramai yang mengatakan, orang yang ' miscarriage' ni lagi teruk berpantang compared to orang bersalin. :( Dahlaa esok, nak D& C tu pun saya takut. Harap2 dapatlaa D&C tu buat esok. Tanak dah rasanyer tunggu lama - lama lagi. Dah cakap ngan hubby tersayang, kalau lambat sangat buat D& C tuh, saya rasa nak buat je kat Azzahra/Annur (private hospital kat Bangi ni). Mahal jugaklaa.. RM1000+ tapi rasa nak tutup je sebelah mata. Sebelah lagi nak guner nak kira duit yang lebey. Jadi, esok  pagi, kami akan ke Hospital Serdang (dengan FIL and MIL saya :) ). Kalau next appointment lambat sangat, mungkin saya akan call private hospital untuk terus buat procedure ini kat situ je.
Doakan semoga segala - galanya berjalan lancar.Ameen...

Tapi, sebagai persiapan sebab esok nak D& C, malam ni Encik Botak kasi green light order Pizza Hut. Sebab esok dah nak kener start pantang.... :). Baik tak husband saya??

So, ini lah summary hasil google saya untuk
1. Makanan waktu pantang. Ini saya dapat dr sini dan sini

Makanan yang boleh:

• Buah - buahan: Apple merah (bukan yang masam,) Oren Manis,( Limau manis),Kurma , Buah Zaitun, Buah Tin (Fig), Delima , Pir, Lai, Pic, Aprikot, Strawberi, Anggur (jangan berlebihan boleh menyebabkan batuk)
• Minuman: Jus Epal, Blackcurrant  ( Ribena ) buah Peach & sirap. Minuman berkhasiat iaitu Susu, Susu Kacang Soya, Horlicks, Milo & Air Akar Herbanika
• Perasa: Gula Merah, Gula Perang, Raw Sugar dan Madu Lebah
• Sayur - Sayuran: Ulam Pegaga, Lemuni , Daun dan Bunga kunyit , Brokoli, Daun pudina ,  Daun kari, Lobak Merah, Tomato, Asparagus ,Salad, Capsicum, Cili Merah, Bebawang ( merah , putih ,besar) dan Ubi Kentang.
• Nasi/Pasta : Nasi panas sederhana lembut, Bubur Nasi, Spagetti, Pasta dan Makaroni
• Ikan: Ikan Merah, Tenggiri, Haruan, Jenahak, Selar Kuning, Kerisi, Kurau, Kerapu, Siakap, Kod, Bawal Putih dan Senangin
• Makanan Bijirin: Gandum, Oats, Cornflakes Bran, Muesli, Kismi Kuning dan Hitam, Kekacang Soya (Tauhu, Tempe dan Tofu) Kekacang Badan, Walnut, Gajus , Bijan, Roti putih, Roti wholemeal
• Makanan Luar: Roti Canai, Tosei, Roti Puri dan Kari 

Nanti saya akan sambung pula edisi ke 2 entry ni.

Let's talk

Cont' from the earlier post...

So, what have happened?

1. I'm now a wife! Adding that to the existing list of best friend, friend, sister, daughter, auntie responsbilities that I have all this while. Oh wait, I'm also daughter-in-law (DIL) and also sister-in-law (SIL) for my in laws. The family is getting bigger. I love the responsbilities because it also comes with greater affection and attention that I got. I'm more than happy to be around my big families now.
2. I have a husband. Yes, I know it's a redundant statement to Point 1 but I do have to emphasize. The reason is because I do feel that I have a perfect husband for me. 6 years ago, a lot of people around me said that I got the perfect boyfriend just to make me believe it. Now, I don't need others to say that to my face. I know for a fact that this guy is the nicest person who I could have end up living the rest of my life with. He knows me. He loves me. And, he respect me. How would I know that? I'll get to that in Point 3.
3. Not many people aware that I'm pregnant (or I was? ). A month ago, my visit to a clinic confirmed that I'm pregnant trought the UPT. It took us by surprised because my earlier 2 UPT test done on my own shows a (-)ve result. Anyway, we were both happy about it. A week ago, I had spottings/bleeding. Was prescribed dupastone and MC for a couple of days. The doctor even advised me to just rest, no cooking, no travelling.
4. My husband didn't allow me to cook at all. He did all the cooking. He even stopped by during lunch so that he can brought me lunches (so that I don't have to cook at all!!!). He washed all my clothes. :) He will get the washing machine for me later on, so in the mean time, he did all the washing. I literally just sit on the couch/ lie on the bed the whole time. 
5. Another visit to the clinic a few days ago didn't bring any good news at all. There's a possibility that I might have a blighted ovum. I'm beginning to feel redha about it. Mr Botak said

                    "its okay, tade rezeki. Next time aje lah . Kalau ade rezeki, ade tuh. Kuasa Allah"

         I told him

                    " Takper. Allah bersama dengan orang orang yang sabar"

         He smiled and uttered

                    " Itu lah sebab abang kawen dengan sayang"

Catching up!!!

Tons of catching up. I know. Blame it all on the craziness of planning a wedding, moving (my hubby moving to my apartment), and trying to settle down. Mix all these and you end up not realizing that its almost 3 months since I became a wife.

Boleh tak?

Boleh tak kita buat mas kawen tu camni ek????hahhahaa

*drooling*...

Veil dan Tudung Nikah

This is supposed to be one of those sweet moments where you and your significant others won't forget. And, since bad memories aren't the type that you can forget easily, you'll try your best to reduce them. Semestinya, you don't want any of your wedding moments to fall into that category. Nak nampak cantik!! Sume nak nampak cantik waktu kawen. Time2 lain muke macam tak siap takper tapi waktu kawen, kener cantik. Hahaha..


So, ape lagi, mestilaa terus survey camanerlaa nak pakai tudung waktu nikah. Ade gak pakai awning tapi rasanyer I tak sesuai pakai awning. Even, encik botak pun cakap camtuh. (Yer, saya tau!!!)


So, kener cari idea lain untuk pakai.tudung. Pastu, kalau dah namanyer kawen, kener laa ade veil skali.


1. Anak tudung syria. Okla jugak ni kalau letak lace border siket kat tudung syria tu. Saya ingat nak pakai anak tudung warna emas (sebab baju saya kaler ivory/ off-white). So, mungkin ade element emas2 siket. Lagipun muke gelap. Lagilaa gelap muke ku kalau ade warna putih2.

Gorgeous giler kan

2 Beli tudung awning kosong, pastu letak veil tu atas tudung. Tgk orang bawah ni cantik tapi I don't think I'll look that gorgeous

OMG! Cantiknyer lace tudung blogger kat atas ni!! Jelesnyer


Anyway, I want to pakai veil dengan lace tu terus kat inner. Meaning, pakai inner kosong, pastu pinkan lace border tu terus kat inner. Kalau pakai tudung chiffon, pastu letak veil tu directly kat atas tudung,


Ini pun cantik gak, but I tak sesuai pakai tudung camni

Ha! This is how I want to look like mase nikah and sanding nanti!!! Cantik kan? Takyah susah2 beli tudung awning. pakai tudung sifon biasa. Then letak hias dengan veil lace tu sendiri. Meaning, lekatkan veil tu terus kat tudung.

Ini pun lebey kurang macam idea letak veil terus kat dahi / atas tudung kosong. Cantikan?


Yes!! I rasa i nk buat camni. OK, fokus pada veil yang cantik skarang!




Ini sume link2 B2B yang DIY veil sendiri, gorgeous giler kan??


Gorgeous DIY Veil


Alamak, tak jumpelak yang lain, nanti saya update kay!

Selalu kener marah!

saya ni slalu kener marah.


dengan sape?


dengan tunang saya lah.


nak tau muke dia camner???


comel siket budak kecik ni :)

So skang, saya bertindak untuk bercakap perkara yang buat saya happy sahaja! Walaupun, perkara tak happy tu melibatkan pasal majlis kawen saya.


For now, tahap happy pasal majlis kawen 50%.

Our Solemnization Detail Checklist (Updated as at 25/12/2010)

Hantaran for Him:
1) Cincin  - (February purchase!) 
2) Jam - done
3) Jersey MU - done
4) Perfume Set - done
5) Wallet & Belt - done
6) Sejadah and Quran - (dah survey tapi tunggu untuk February purchase)
7) Sirih Junjung - (belum survey lagi tp untuk February purchase)
8) Buah (mungkin Apple?)
9) Cake / Coklat - (Patchi untuk February purchase)


Hantaran for Her:
1) Cincin (belum beli lagi) and Mas Kahwin
2) Perfume Set - done
3) Handbag (still survey but this is for February purchase)
4) Make up set - done

5) Quran (belum beli lagi)
6) Sirih Junjung and Bunga Rampai
7) Coklat / Kek


Makan:

Bihun goreng, Kuih (Morning snacks) - Masak sendiri?

PA System / Entertainment:
None kot!

Catering:
Masak sendiri ? - TBD

Tok Kadi:
Imam Jurunikah Masjid Saidina Umar Al - Khattab

Decorations and Gubahan Hantaran: 

Maybe will get my aunties lovely touches!

Borang2 permohonan berkahwin:
Dah ambil, tapi belum isi.

Photographer and Videographer: 
Atynn

Kad Jemputan: 
LH Creative - Done

Make Up Artist: 
Kak La Herbapaty - (RM300 inclusive Sanding makeup + SPA+ Henna)

Baju Nikah:
Tailor D-Renjis

Venue: 
Rumah

Henna:
Kak La Herbapaty

Pulut Kuning / Nasi Kunyit & Rendang
TBD

Hand Bouquet
DIY

Reception Checklist

Our Wedding Reception Detail Checklist (Updated as at 25/12/2010 -- Christmas yey!)


Venue:
My house @ Besut, Terengganu


Catering:
TBD   (budget: RM10 per pax for 400)
(Termasuk Kerusi, Meja, Alas Meja / Skirting, Balut Kerusi, Meja Pengantin, 3 Buffet Corner)


Make Up Artist:
Kak La (RM300 including Akad Nikah makeup + SPA)


Photographer:
Atynn


Baju Reception:
Baju: TBD (dah book kat Drenjis tapi rasa macam nak tukar baju, boleh tak?)
Kasut: TBD
Tudung: TBD
Veil: tBD


Bunga Pahar:
TBD


Pelamin and Deco:
TBD (I hope I can get Shazswedding)


Emcee:
Most probably, my cousin but this is still in discussion


Performance:
None


Kompang:
TBD


Invitation Card:
LH Creative (done! RM350)


VIP Door Gift:
TBD


Door Gift:
Yassin; Mathurat, Sweets from Japan, Air, Non-woven bag


Bunga Manggar:
TBD


Corsage:
TBD


Wedding Cake (Fondant):
TBD(Kener ke ade kek ek?)


Hand Bouquet:
TBD (Hopefully I can just buy fresh flowers and DIY)

Foto By Razali : Wedding Photography Giveaway contest

Mesti ramai yang berminat lepas tengok poster biru dengan font kuning putih yang comel ni. Its basically a contest by Mohd Razali, a professional wedding photographer who has decided to give away a free wedding photography package to anyone!! Yes dear, anyone! But, with a condition, you need to fulfill some of his requirements. More info, you can view here:.Mohd Razali Wedding Photography Giveaway


So, which one did i choose?

Foto By Razali – http://blog.mohdrazali.com

Getting both  nature and humans to work together takes more than a 'click'. Its about the time when you click and  the perfect angle to capture the combination which surely does sound like a lot of work compared to the word 'click' itself.


I like the way he capture the moments. They were quite real (which is what we are looking in all the pictures). All the expressions are there; happy, sad, in love. The color texture (sorry laa Encik Razali, i memang tiada knowledge dalam photography area punyer jargons) was really soft and enticing. When I said enticing, it looks extremely pleasant to my eyes and i feel the urge to continue browsing your blog.


Like this picture, i still wonder macam maner tak terpercik air tu kat lens kamera dia?  The color of the air pun cantik sangat. Blue - turquoise. Cantik... Macam kaler laut dalam.I just hope the couple tu dekat siket. So i can see the splashes of water dekat kaki and baju the bride.Satu lagi, I like the bayang2 couple tu dekat air. Cantik. Even the buih2 ombak pun nice! :)

Whenever we took any picture, and we found out that someone eyes were closed, most of us would be snapping another picture because to us, its a failure. You would have thought the same hypothesis applied here. You got it wrong! (Even me the first time). My fiance was the one who pointed out what a great moment was this. With the bride closing her eyes, she's enjoying the moments of getting a kiss by her husband with a mixed feelings of respect and 'malu2 kucing'. Both of them must have rush of emotions going through their minds. If I'm the bride, most  likely I wont be able to hold my tears of happiness for the year to come whenever I look back at this picture.


Yes, there's one more that I love!!

Another perfect combination of human and nature. Everything is perfect...moment, couple and talented protographer. And if an ant was given a chance to use dslr, i'm pretty sure the ant will say (in its squeky voice)


              "cantik gambar ni" (honest answer from a tiny, weeny ant who speak Malay)


All your pictures are saturated with vivid colors (your signature I assume) and formally composed. I like how you snap the pictures not just a photojournalist but also producing the elobarately produce image from bridal magazine. Giving the brides the kind of pictures that she might have saw in the bridal magazine.



Furthermore, since i'm living somewhere in Terengganu with the nearest beach is just 15 minutes away from my house (pulau perhentian is 1 hr away), I was hoping that he could come and become my OP for the day! Maybe then, he could take the picture almost like this for me. I like all the pictures that he took at the beach. Cantik! Most of your pictures seem to revolve around nature and I hope you can do the same for me in Terengganu.


My nikah is going to be held at night. So, its very crucial i got someone who can capture the moment and I believe I've found him! (Encik Razali, i hope you know its you :) )


Then, my house is rumah kayu lama. So, I want him to capture that as well. The keping2 kayu, bumbung rumah tu....cantik for professionals who know how to appreciate that kind of details. 


And of course, I want him to nail the pictures of my family and relatives. I like another picture when the bride's dad shows the check to another guy (possible his brothers). Sangat touching that moment. I'm pretty sure there are tons of thoughts going through his mind when he look at the check. And I want to have that! I want to be part of everything that's going on at my wedding. I want to feel the happiness, tiredness, sadness. Those are priceless as it means a lot (more than the dowry)


There, you have it Encik Razali; all the reason why I want you to take my wedding pictures.

I'm so blessed...

Ramai yang mungkin tak tahu sebenarnya orang yang mula2 skali nampak keikhlasan dan kebaikan encik botak saya ni ialah arwah mak saya. Eventhough she was sick (with schizophrenia), but Allah had given her the ability to see the goodness in my fiance.

Back then, I never really knew him. Tapi, my mom insisted that this is the right man for me. I remember how frustated I was that my mom didn't know me well enough and didn't want to listen to my heart. Yet, in the end, she knows me best.

There were a few incidents that happen before I met Mr. Botak that makes me feel frustated with how things were between us. Alhamdulillah, bila I baca the notes below, I began to realize ...

The Grand Master Plan that Allah has chartered for us was unbelieveble. Itula tanda Allah sayang kat kita...

I remembered reading the post below somewhere...

Memang sakit bila cinta yg kita dambakan selama ini tak dihargai oleh insan yg bernama kekasih,apatah lagi kita dibuang begitu saja... tapi,itulah juga petanda terbaik untuk diri dan kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang
1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan...

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKALWahai sahabat yg kecewa,menderita dan sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa kehidupan kita makin sampai ke penghujungnya


Hari esok pun kita sendiri tak pasti samada menjadi milik kita. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan melaksanakan suruhanNYA, dan meninggalkan laranganNYA


PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu untuk menolak permintaan hambaNYA yg menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh pengharapan HANYA kepadaNYA.


I love my fiance so much... and I love you, Ma! 

Shopping!

Anyway, everytime I tgk my buku ASB, rasa nak nangis. Takper, Insya Allah after this I will top up like crazy. Now, updates untuk my shopping..

HANTARAN FOR HIM

• 1.Jam Tangan  Dah lame settle!
• 2. Kasut - tak jadi.. ganti ngan  Bunga Rampai!
• 3. Baju & Seluar  Bagi Jersey MU :) He loike!!
• 4. Wallet & Belt    Beli kat Sogo! Settle!
• 5. Toiletries/ Perfume Set Both of us like the Dunhill Blue smell! Ahh.. Settle!
• 6. Al- Quran (ini dalam to buy list this weekend)
• 7. Cincin Suasa (beli bulan January 2010)
• 8. Chocolate/ Cake (Tak usha lagi.. Maybe next year!)
• 9. Sireh (Idea dah ade.. :) )

HANTARAN FOR HER

• 1. Wang Hantaran --:)
• 2. Handbag   I decided not to have shoes sebab nanti got Al-quran atas tray jugak. Untuk menjaga hati the elders... Nak guner voucher laa :)
• 3. Perfume Set - Done :)
• 4. Makeup Set - I like this very very much!!  Done
• 5. Al-Quran - (ini dalam to buy list this weekend)
• 6. Chocolate/ Cake - my Fiance punyer part!
• 7. Sireh - my Fiance punyer part!

I have yet to figure out how i'm going to do the hantarans. Maybe I could use plates (yang akan diguna pakai nanti) or just go ahead with the bantal? Tgk dulu...

Ok, itu untuk hantaran! :) Next post is about the rest of my preparation ya!

Kulit awak nampak makin cerahlaa...

Mesti ade orang cakap i ni gediks dan perasan (orang tu i dah tau dah sape... sile sembam muke atas bantal). Tapi ini bukan i yang cakap ok? Ade orang lain yang cakap camni. Okeh, meh kita ulang tayang siket ape yang dia cakap..

Di depan kaunter gerai makan di Makan Place...

I tgh sebok2 nak bayar makanan with my 2 other friend. 

"Eh, nak beli kuih tak?"

"Nak2... jap ek"

"Eh, muke yati dah putih siket laaa "

"Haa... tadelaa" (Kaver2 malu dengan harapan pujian tu making panjang.. taktik biasa I)

Pastu tak sempat lagi nak sambung sebab dok cari duit dalam wallet yang dah semakin nipis (Cam makin susah lak nak cari duit sebab duit tu pandai2 je sembunyi diri dier)

Pikir gak what did I do to deserve such atonement? Pastu baru buat2 teringat that I have been using the SK II sample set for almost a month and I do noticed that my skin memang quite smooth sket. Still tak sampai level cam baby butt tapi cam toddler's butt leh laa dikira akal. Jerawat pun dah tak naik sangat. Walaupun muke I takkan jadi tahap macam Lisa Surihani, tapi asalkan dapat kulit muke yang smooth dan comel, that's good enough!

I asked my fiance the other day about hantaran untuk facial set

"Eh, untuk facial set, takyah kali laa.. nanti tak guner tau. Sayang pakai SKII sample skang, malu laa nak letak SK II as hantaran"

"Nape? "

"Mahal laa set SK II tuh, ribu2 tau"

"Sample dier bape ringgit"

"Murah je" Memang murah tau, RM99 je sample set dia tapi banyak yang dah discontinued 

"Haa, takperlaa... Gunerjelaa sample tu sampai bile bile"

Dalam hati.. boleh lak I jadi gadis sample SK II.

Ladies Coach

Today's mark the first day I embark on the "ladies coach". I haven't step foot on komuter for almost a year. Why should I when I can drive to work and back home whenever I want? Its the luxury of getting some space between you and another stranger is the excuse I've been using to my fiance why I wanted to drive all this years (Apart of the idea of having to stand up the whole journey which is not something that I fond of). Don't even get me started with the 'smell'...


However, a year later, I had to go back to my old routine due to a couple of reason. The main reason??


1. Increase in Midvalley car park rates. Instead of paying the already high priced parking rates cap at RM6, we are now doomed with the 'No maximum charge' clause that they put here. Meaning, we all could be paying for RM 9 or 10 (that's the usual daily rates). 

Tambah tolak sume, weekly I'm paying around RM50(gas) + RM20 (toll) + RM45 (parking) = RM115/week. Which means, I'm going to be paying ~RM460 per month untuk transportation sahaja. Isk.. That amount of money could be use for buying my hantaran tau!

Kalau I naik komuter (please refer to image above)
one way ticket from Bangi to Midvalley is RM 3.7 * 40 rides = RM148 (kurang dalam RM310) ... Banyak tau boleh save.


And yes, back to our post title, we now have the Ladies Coach. Yay, now no need to worry about smelly or pervert guys! I feel so safe now.. Well, at least even if i have to stand, I don't mind. 

Checklist

I got tons of checklist everyday. Everyday, i always end up with new checklist for everything. Just name it. Movies that I need to watch. Grocery list. What should I do the first thing in the morning to stay young :). How to get more money. Ahh... skills that I need to get in order to get a better job with better pay. Things I need to do before I die.

Our life consist of checklist everyday. Its one way to preserve the so called sanity. Staying sane is important for me, especially.